NEWTOWN, Conn. --The ''new'' Sandy Hook Elementary School opened this week, and at least one victim's family has decided to not even see it.
Students attended school at Sandy Hook on Monday for the first time since a shooting rampage there killed 20 first graders and six educators in 2012. The old building has been completely torn down and rebuilt.
But while the new school opened this week, one victim's family has decided not to see it. Instead, they're choosing to create what they call a little piece of heaven on Earth.
"There are days where I think, 'Oh my gosh, it has been four years, and it feels like a lifetime.' And the other days, it's been a day," said Jenny Hubbard.
Hubbard and her husband Matt lost their daughter Catherine - just 6 - in the school attack.
With rosy cheeks and fiery red hair, she was obsessed with animals great and small, alive and stuffed. Her brother Freddy, two years older, survived that horrible day.
In the Hubbard home, Catherine's room remains just as she left it, and her Christmas presents are still hidden in the basement. The massacre happened in mid-December, less that two weeks before the holiday.
"So many days I said, 'I'm not going to get out of bed.' Matt would chuckle and say, 'No, you're not. You're going to get Freddy on the bus. You're going to go about your day 'cause he needs you,' Thank God. Thank God," said Jenny Hubbard.
She has chosen to heal apart from the school community. She has yet to read the police report or see the new school. Freddy transferred to a new school years ago.
"I am so proud of who he is and who he has become. We took him out of Sandy Hook because we really feel like he's got his own story to tell. We refused to have Freddy look at us when he's 20 or 25 and say, 'Where were you? I was there, too,'" said Jenny Hubbard.
When not taking care of Freddy, Jenny Hubbard's job is creating what she calls a little heaven on Earth: The Catherine Violet Hubbard Animal Sanctuary.
The $5 million piece of property in the geographic heart of Newtown was donated by the state, with a local architecture firm drawing up state-of-the-art plans pro bono.
Volunteers refurbished a once-dilapidated barn, and there's a butterfly bench Catherine would have loved donated by a Girl Scout, a pavilion from an anonymous donor, and other amenities.
"I go up to the sanctuary just to be, and I know that breeze is her, that quaintness, there's always some sort of creature. It's a blessing. The sanctuary is a blessing. We truly believe it's how God is making something good out of this. It's his way of saying there's purpose in this. You're not done yet. Here ya go," said Jenny Hubbard.